報 應

罗马书12:19

親 愛 的 弟 兄 ， 不 要 自 己 伸 冤 ， 寧 可 讓 步 ， 聽 憑 主 怒 （ 或 作 ： 讓 人 發 怒 ） ； 因 為 經 上 記 著 ： 主 說 ： 伸 冤 在 我 ； 我 必 報 應 。

帖 撒 羅 尼 迦 前 書 4:6

不 要 一 個 人 在 這 事 上 越 分 ， 欺 負 他 的 弟 兄 ； 因 為 這 一 類 的 事 ， 主 必 報 應 ， 正 如 我 預 先 對 你 們 說 過 ， 又 切 切 囑 咐 你 們 的 。

Retribution

“Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord”

   –Romans 12:19

Scar

The hurt was pain and the cut was deep…

The scar will leave on forever, even till the day I go and meet my Lord Jesus Christ.

“It will be an assault case if I bring him to hospital” ; “How he spend his money”; “How come my son become like that”; Is good you better go look for other _ _ _ _ _ and leave him” ??? (I knew all along you wanted to tear us apart, now you very happy mdm Y! Making other suffer in pain emotionally and mentally is your hobbies) 

Go ahead! Go directly to report to the police mdm Y! Stop using threatening words and causing emotional abuse to the innocent soul. I couldn’t have a image of a black hearted women still stepping into church and pretending to worship God………… (Are you worshipping to your own god, your own selfishness, your unloving black heart and evil mind).

Now I knew, not those who called themselve “Christian” are really from God, are really follower of Jesus. Cause they do not show mercy, grace and love to other people, they are selfish – think for themselve and kept protecting their own children even if they created mistake, they just push all the blame and fault to other people. Come on, YOU – protective mother! wakeup and relfect yourself in the mirror…….. everyone have parent – althought I do not have a family, you need not abuse me to such extend. I have my Father, who is the heavenly God, I believe He will seek you for what you all had done to me!

Hey, mdm Y, thanks for all your humiliation. My Father will seek an answer from you. Thanks for tearing me apart, I knew all along you dislike me and thanks for ignoring me – when I called or greeted you in the past, you just pretend not to hear me and walk off. Lastly, you have created a big scar in my life, I will never forget YOU! (Stop calling my mother to humiliate her! Your heart is as black as charcoal!)

Abusive Relationship / Emotional Abuse

Symptom of abusive relationships :

1) Is violent and / or loses his temper quickly.

2) Claims you are responsible for his emotional state.

3) Blames you when he mistreats you.

4) Your family and friends have warned you about the person or told you that they are concerned for your safety or emotional well being.

5) Your partner “rages” when they feel hurt, shame, fear or loss of control.

6) You frequently worry about how he will react to things you say or do.

7) He grew up witnessing an abusive parental relationship.

8) Deliberately distorts the facts and assigns blame to you.

9) Constantly makes you feel guilty for things you have not done or had done.

10) He hit walls, do other dangerous things to scare you.

11) like “Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde,” acting one way in front of other people and another way when you are alone.

12) When the abuser disallows and overrules any viewpoints, perceptions or feelings which differ from their own.

13) Emotional Blackmail:

The other person plays on your fear, guilt, compassion, values, or other “hot buttons” to get what they want.

This could include threats to end the relationship, totally reject or abandon you, giving you the the “cold shoulder,” or using other fear tactics to control you.

14) Withholding includes refusing to listen, refusing to communicate, and emotionally withdrawing as punishment. This is sometimes called the “silent treatment.”

 

 

 

Thank U to all you Liar out there!

You are of your father the devil, and your will is to do your father’s desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, and has nothing to do with the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks out of his own character, for he is a liar and the father of lies.                           – John 8:44

Thanks for fooling and cracking those beautiful lies……… it’s sufficient to make one soul broken into pieces and never recover again…… the scar was deep and will stay on forever. Never will one trust and believe again…. there was no truth no promises from a human mouth………. they only lies and lies, cause their father is a liar.

They will taste their fruit themselve one day, how shocking and painful to be cheated by someone whom you believe and trusted so much, and how within speed second they could torn you down and left you with painful scar and turmoil.

cripple soul

The pain was beyond description, it beneath my inner soul and the uncontrollable tears kept flowing down my face. Why Lord? My world was upside down in 2010, Why ? It such a great pain that cripple the whole of me, and consuming me day by day……….

Tears

God if you do collect my tears…. then tell me what happen?

Is it wrong to be sincere? Is it wrong to be true? Why and that there was no reply? Isn’t Lord Jesus taught about love? And why is his follower not doing so?

Tears pain my eyes… they are swollen and alcohol numb my feeling… where is my friend? where is that sss bear? God give me an answer….

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” whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable — if anything is excellent or praiseworthy — think about such things” (Philippians 4:8).

Letter to Lord Jesus

My Father in heaven, I was totally torn down, left only with a broken soul……. i really do not know how to move on with life. Why? why me? Love? Promises? What is all this? Is just a lie! The dream of having my own happy family was shattered totally…………

It’s torturing…….. i do not even have a shoulder to cry on and do not even have a listening ear. Will flying the best solution? Tell me?

I am too tired to move on, all my energy was suck up by ppl. Now what left behind was emotional scar/hurt. That I do not know how to get heal at this stage… and I was left abandon by ppl. Other than crying every night and soaking myself with my own tears till the next morning…. what else can i think of ?

Lord Jesus, take me please……. i am totally broken, i can only offer my tears to you every night. I am sorry Lord, for being such a useless child.

I wanted to worship you in church too, but none, nobody welcome this soul of mine………… ppl only love to connect with happy and positive person (ppl who are rich and happy and carefree). i  should have remain in my shell 5 years ago, i shouldn’t believe there was love.

Through all this years, i learn that this world was cruel. Ppl do not encourage you when you  are broken and stress up by the current situation, they just left one by one. The feeling of abandonment was so strong…….. i do not have the courage to move on anymore….. will this be my 2nd attempt?

God Bring me there

totally heartbroken by what had happened…….. anyone there?

there was no words of encouragement or concern from anyone…… it time,,,,

how to continue in this broken home with dead soul…