Letter to Lord Jesus

My Father in heaven, I was totally torn down, left only with a broken soul……. i really do not know how to move on with life. Why? why me? Love? Promises? What is all this? Is just a lie! The dream of having my own happy family was shattered totally…………

It’s torturing…….. i do not even have a shoulder to cry on and do not even have a listening ear. Will flying the best solution? Tell me?

I am too tired to move on, all my energy was suck up by ppl. Now what left behind was emotional scar/hurt. That I do not know how to get heal at this stage… and I was left abandon by ppl. Other than crying every night and soaking myself with my own tears till the next morning…. what else can i think of ?

Lord Jesus, take me please……. i am totally broken, i can only offer my tears to you every night. I am sorry Lord, for being such a useless child.

I wanted to worship you in church too, but none, nobody welcome this soul of mine………… ppl only love to connect with happy and positive person (ppl who are rich and happy and carefree). i  should have remain in my shell 5 years ago, i shouldn’t believe there was love.

Through all this years, i learn that this world was cruel. Ppl do not encourage you when you  are broken and stress up by the current situation, they just left one by one. The feeling of abandonment was so strong…….. i do not have the courage to move on anymore….. will this be my 2nd attempt?